03 November 2008

Halloween And Assorted Other Uncertainties


In an effort to be outgoing and in honor of my new calling, I went to my ward's Halloween dance/party. I wasn't feeling particularly creative and my Daphne (from Scooby-Doo) costume had seen better days. So I just slapped on some goth nail polish, a bunch of black eyeliner, a black leather cuff I found at Claire's in the 'Claire's for Boys' section, and my beloved Supernatural Metallicar t-shirt and went as my evil twin. Not particularly creative, but I wasn't feeling particularly festive. Part of it was the hellacious week of presentations-being-criticized-by-the-professor-in-the-middle-of-them-in-front-of-the-rest-of-the-class and other school stresses. Part of it is that Halloween was my mom's second favorite holiday and celebrating it is hard still (seriously, almost had a complete and total meltdown on the bus two weeks ago because I overheard a man telling his daughter about the Great Pumpkin). And part of it was the fact that in the days of Yore, Parker, Treat Queen, and I (and any other assorted friends we could drag into the mayhem) would make Halloween fun, whether we did anything grand or not. So, the evening consisted of me trying to be involved and join groups and make friends and dance and enjoy the festivities, all the while thinking "if only Parker & Treat Queen were here." I can't lie, I breathed a sigh of relief when I left the party at 11. It just wasn't the same without my good friends. So many inside jokes, cryptic references, collective memories that were missing. And sometimes I don't know if I have the energy to start all over.

7 comments:

aquamarine said...

The evil twin idea wasn't so bad! Easy, effective, just my idea of a good costume. ;) Sorry about the other junk and sadness last week!

Treat Queen said...

But I do love that pic of you in Goth

Cami said...

black is your color! but damn that professor!

Heather said...

Hey I think the evil twin was a VERY creative idea! way to go. And way to be brave and go to the party - sans old friends. Nothing is better than old friends I tell ya. I hope this week is better for you.

You probably don't want to hear this, but I always have and always will think of your mother on Halloween.. and whenever anyone even mentions The Watcher in the Woods... and whenever I see a truly evil villian on the big screen. I was always jealous of your fabulous costumes and painted front window :)

Scully said...

Actually, Heather, that is wonderful to hear. It is nice to hear things like that from our nearest and dearest friends. It is when people who weren't that close feel it necessary to tell me about their grief that I have problems. But from you, it is comforting!

Thanks for the compliments on the costume idea everyone. I do like the smoky eye make-up, but it is just too much of hassle to do other than on Halloween. Or when my old roommates and I would go Goth on Valentines Day at BYU. That was always fun!

esperanza said...

I'm proud of you for going, that was brave!!

ZB said...

Wow..what a shot. You are too cool for me!