I can't even process what has happened in the past five days. But this song has been running through my head constantly, so I thought I would share. It expresses everything so perfectly.
What Sarah Said
by Death Cab for Cutie
And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to Father Time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself
'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
Ant then the nurse comes round and everone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said:
That "love is watching someone die."
Ok, so I have heard from several individuals who were freaked out by the content of the song. Which is weird because I find huge amounts of comfort in this song and actually find it uplifting. Maybe because of the melody. I don't know. I didn't mean to scare or depress anyone. Sorry.