02 September 2011

Accumulated Realizations

I will be the first to point out that I am not happy tonight. In fact, I am grumpy and sad and angry about things over which I have no control. I am also being extremely ungrateful by being so after having so many prayers answered with my niece's safe surgery and fast recovery. However, the following are things I have realized or learned that I'm not exactly thrilled about.

  • Months of work in property management have illustrated that there are loads of obnoxious, loud, insufferable, entitled people who can't be bothered to live by the simplest of social norms or act like adults, but seem to have no consequences or repercussions because they are loud and insufferable enough to get their way a majority of the time.
  • At the age of 32, I do not want to be living with three roommates. One roommate, tops. I like my space.
  • It isn't the active rejection that makes these single years so difficult. In those cases it is easy to get angry, indulge in ice cream, angry girl music, and rants to long-suffering friends and then get over it. It is the years of passive rejection in which no one shows a bit of interest that wear me down. It eats at my confidence and my hope like no other.
  • I am apparently not destined to work at a job I enjoy or that pays a living wage.
  • Arthur Conan Doyle's A Study in Scarlet was once removed from a school reading list in Virginia because of its depiction of Mormons as kidnappers and women-enslavers.
  • "No mater what" and "Thy will be done" are some of the hardest phrases in the English language. Especially when those phrases encompass the realization that there is only the steep and difficult path in front of one and that there is no way of knowing if it just stays that way until the end or if there might be some happy days ahead.


Nemesis said...

I am sorry. All of that does truly suck. You deserve wonderful, wonderful things, and my fingers are crossed that they will start coming your way soon.

Anonymous said...

I'm right there with you on several counts...it's been a pretty lame year so far. The roomies and I have decided to take up Psycho Hosebeast-dom (adding the slutty part is optional), as those are the only kind of girls who get attention around here. You could jump on that wagon with us. Just sayin'. ;)


esperanza said...

I hear you.

John Peterson said...

In response to Anonymous' comment. If you're looking for a righteous temple worthy man, do you really think "slutty" is the way to attract him? It's a sad commentary on the state of dating in the Church if girls have to lower their standards like this to snag a guy.