30 October 2006

Count Your Blessings

Which is exactly what I did tonight. I sat down at my desk, squeezed a square of desktop between my keyboard and the five piles of paperwork stacked next to it and started to write thank you notes to everyone who sent something for my birthday. It was too quiet, but all the CDs in my room somehow seemed wrong and I knew that if I walked out into the living room to find the right ones, I would get sucked into doing something else. So I turned on the television hoping TNT was playing re-runs of The X-Files but instead found some procedural show in which the detectives solve old, previously unsolved crimes. This one revolved around a 12 year-old girl who was killed in 1990. It turned out that she was the victim of a group of horrible girls whose bullying lead to her death. It hit me at some point that I was 12 in 1990 and while I wasn't the small, underdeveloped, glasses-wearing nerd, I was the tall, overweight, glasses-wearing nerd. There were some horrible girls in junior high and high school and while the worst parts of me hope that they are fat when I see them at our 10 year high school reunion, I also had a great group of friends who were there through thick and thin, then and now. And for that I am eternally grateful. So to those wonderful girls from the class of '97: THANK YOU!

8 comments:

cherbear said...

I was a nerd too so it is nice to have friends that like you. My husband was kind of a nerd too so we're perfect for each other.
By the way, XF reruns are on SciFi Channel if you wanna check it out.

Esperanza said...

Class of 97 was a rare and wonderful breed wasn't it? jk. Thanks for being there for me too, and still!

aquamarine said...

LOL, wouldn't that be a sight to see, Scully. But thank you as well. It just wouldn't have been bearable without all of us together.

Scully said...

Sadly, CherBear, we don't get the SciFi channel. We just have basic cable. And I'm not really in a position to spring for digital cable right now.

E & Mama darlin' - Seriously, I would have been a neurotic, crazy mess of a girl if I hadn't had friends like you guys. We ARE a rare and wonderful breed of friends. The fact that we are all still friends attests to that.

Panini said...

tender. thanks scully.
I've been thinking about girl bullying a lot lately because Margaret Atwood's book "Cat's Eye" is all about that. It was bad in the book and then she got all these letters from women saying the bullying they experienced was way worse, and thanks for writing a novel about it.

Scully said...

Panini, I'm halfway through Oryx & Crake and I really like it. Somehow she manages to keep the writing light despite the dark subject. We'll have to have a chat about it when I finish it!

Panini said...

yay! I know! she's amazing huh - - - I catch myself laughing and I think, "wait--I'm laughing about child porn," or some other topic.
geez!
p.s. she's so stinkin clever - lovin the fridge magnets, the virtual games, and the company names

Panini said...

You're so tricky asking for Christmas Card addresses~! ;)thanks for the card